Diary of a Mad Editor

I suppose it’s true that practically everyone is bad at keeping New Year’s resolutions. I’m terrible at keeping them. Well . . . maybe not that terrible. I usually keep about a third of them. Every year I make a list of things I want to accomplish during the year. I always start-out gung ho but then I get lazy, distracted, diverted in my purpose and I’m left with a list of unfulfilled promises. On one hand, this inability to meet some fundamental goals disturbs me. On the other hand, had I spent more of my energy on my list this past year, I probably would have spent less time on this blog, and I like spending time on this blog. But that’s the thing isn’t it? Resolutions are for people who think they can control their universe — more than that, they are for people who think they should control it.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the last couple of years is that we don’t control the universe and the more we try, the more the universe will bend us to it’s will. And those diversions that sidetrack us from our goals? Well, that’s what life is all about isn’t it? Being open to discovery. So yeah, I’ve made a list of New Year’s resolutions because I’m a sucker for making lists but I know I won’t be crossing off too many items off that list. And that’s okay. Fuck it, and Happy New Year.